Kensington

Bats

Could I ever speak
Will I ever breach
How can I be enabled
If it's a calling of the heart you cannot see

Can't read a foreign body language
Who am I to teach

You don't know about growing pains
That were neglected in me
You don't know about warning signs
Ignored and left at the scene

Indeed I'm known to falling standards
Who am I to preach

(Gone)
But you couldn't understand
(And I let it)
So I lied again
(Go)
And I wouldn't let you in
(And I'll get it)
So you cast another stone
You'll find it on your own
(If I let it)
I better let it
(Go)

You will let me down now
Cause you could not lift it
I'll back down when I cannot stand the weight
We'll wake up to breaking hearts I know it

Could I ever meet
Ever present needs
How can I be relabeled
If it has always been indoctrinated in me

That heathens die and love is blind now
Who am I to see

(Gone)
But you couldn't understand
(And I let it)
So I lied again
(Go)
And I wouldn't let you in
(And I'll get it)
So you cast another stone
You'll find it on your own
(If I let it)
I better let it
(Go)

You will let me down now
Cause you could not lift it
I'll back down when I cannot stand the weight
We'll wake up to breaking hearts I know it

All left out
We were left out
Irrelevant
We were left out again

You will let me down now
Cause you could not lift it
I'll back down when I cannot stand the weight
We'll wake up to breaking hearts I know it
To breaking hearts I know it
Now good luck holding it
Together

What Lies Ahead

Cold and broken down
It's all I knew
I let it corner me in
And hide where my tracks lead

Now I'm waking up
And all I do
Is getting lost in the past
To find where I'd first hear

That I was never gonna be somebody
That I was never gonna feel light come around
And they rise again as I am told that I should see

Red now
And to fear what lies ahead now
But I know that I will
Do everything for you again
I will do everything for you again
And I bet now
You will see that I will burn what I don't need here
And I'll know it's alright, alright, alright

How I faded out
Cause I never knew
That all the thorns in my bed
Were passed down and taught me

That I was never gonna be somebody
That I was never gonna feel light come around
And they rise again as I am told that I should see

What if the years won't come?
It's caught up in my head
What if I'll be outrun?
It haunts me down instead
It has gone one way
It was bound to break
And it all reminds me of a time I
Fooled around but now I'm fighting

Insane

A seat on the stand
As you're causing a row
There to proof again that I am
Just there in both the wrong time and the wrong place

I plead innocent
But you're dragging me down
Down a road where I know I can't
Get time to raise up my guard for you, can't wait

Till I cave

It's not the words
Not the fear or the doubt
Not the lack of heart that takes me out
It's the knowing that you can't relate
When you're insane

Scenes of distress
They follow me around
Till I lose again and by then
You might be calm but my head will explode
I'm out of moves here
I swallow it down
Like a poison undefined that
Enters my veins like a thread that I can't shake

Till I cave

It's not the words
Not the fear or the doubt
Not the lack of heart that takes me out
It's the knowing that you can't relate
When you're insane

It's not the pain
Not the bruise or the scar
Not a lack of love that breaks me down
It's the knowing that you can't refrain
Cause you're insane

I know I wait too long
Before I will break a bond
I know my body froze
My greatest loss

It's not the words
Not the fear or the doubt
Not the lack of heart that takes me out
It's the knowing that you can't relate
When you're insane

It's not the pain
Not the bruise or the scar
Not the lack of love that breaks me down
It's the knowing that you can't refrain
Cause you're insane

Uncharted

No one knows just what to say
It's like we're in uncharted territory
No one knows the proper way
It's like the ground has fallen from under me

And all sensible words
All sensible hearts
Oh where do they go
And why do they leave us now

And if I could go back again, I'll go back again
If the worst is happening how does anything work
Now let me please go back again, I'll go back again

No one knows what part to play
It's like we're in uncharted territory
No one knows another way
It's like all grace in life has parted from me

And all sensible words
All sensible souls
Oh where do they go
And why do they leave us now

And all sensible words
All sensible hearts
Keep calling for course
A heading or buoy
Could the end be a start?
All sensible souls
Oh where do they go
And why do they leave us now

Part Of Me

It is a part of me
And it breaks my heart to see
I was a part of you
When no one else could be

It is a part of me
And it breaks my heart to see
It wasn't all of you
But it takes a lot to leave

I know though whatever what my instincts tell me
I keep on coming back
I know if I'm honest that I can't see clear
And it's hard to hear that

I found the answers in a place I don't belong
Will I bend
Will I fold
Will I surrender?

It was a part of me
And it breaks my arms to carry
You'll take it all with you
And leave it dead and buried

I know though whatever what my instincts tell me
I keep on coming back
I know if I'm honest that I can't see clear
And it's hard to hear that

I found the answers in a place I don't belong
Will I bend
Will I fold
Will I surrender?
And I was bound to be the last man standing all along
Will I slip
Will I break
Will I remember?

Could it be it's a waste on somebody like me
Could it be it's a waste on somebody like me

Chronos Pt. 1

I'm told that I should not have seen it
I know that I could not obey
Demons line up to fade out our colors
All around

There's not a fire that we're not feeding
There's not a bribe that we don't take
Leave it undone and take out our mother
In her own home

Seen from miles away
No one moved

How did we lead it this far when we knew it was dead from the start?
How can we still disregard when we know that we tore it apart?

Now the lions are defeated
Now the tyrants are embraced
Demons line up and waves are uncovered
And it is all done

Seen from miles away
No one moved

How did we lead it this far when we knew it was dead from the start
How can we still disregard when we know that we tore it apart?
How did we lead it this far when we knew it was dead from the start?
If all we can feed on is bred within greed then I'd rather I starve

Island

I don't want to blame
I just want to leave this horrid place the way I came
But here we are again

I don't want to wait
For another wave to come and rule another day

I don't want to stay
I just want to wash away this vile and awful taste
But here we are again

Got nothing more to say
Only want to leave it and not seek for it again

And I'll be an island
And the shore where I stand
Can't be reached by more than waves
I told my sharks

That I need an island
For I know the violence
And I'll make the same mistakes
Again

I don't want a flame
I don't want to risk a fire that leaves a toxic waste
But here we are again

And I don't want to play
Only want to breathe again
Be free and let it end

And I'll be an island
And the shore where I stand
Can't be reached by more than waves
I told my sharks

And I need an island
If it turns to violence
Then I swear I'll drift away
I cross my heart

All will in time mend
When the moment is right will the feeling die
Who am I inside then
When I know when I fight all I want is hide and

And I'll be an island
And the shore where I stand
Can't be reached by more than waves
I told my sharks

That I need an island
If it turns to violence
Then I swear I'll drift away
I cross my heart

I know my heart
I sold my heart

I don't want to blame
I just want to leave this horrid place the way I came
But here we are again

Ten Times The Weight

Force me to love myself
Ten times the weight
Like a widow weighing down her faith

Force me to find myself
Ten times the haze
On the other side I found my way

No one has to know

That I will go this far
I know it inside as I hold my heart for you
That I will go this far
No one in life who will know
That I will lose it all

Force me to love myself
Ten times the cage
Like a borough closing down its gates

Force me to calm myself
Ten times the rage
With another word it just might break

No one seems to know

That I will go this far
I know it inside as I hold my heart for you
That I will go this far
No one in life who will know
That I will lose

Now that I greet the end
And go where I will go
Heaven inside my hands
I hope that I won't be alone

Such a clever way of nothing new
Such a clever way of nothing new

Perfect Family Day

Focus on the rain
Dripping through every hole
Every night's the same

God has left this place
Left us on his way out
Risen questions stay

And it hopelessly went wrong
This tiresome masquerade
A perfect family day
Tragically displayed

Cover up these stains
Keeping up appearances
Jaded smiles remain

Watching fate take place
We're sulking and we're stumbling through
Grey and spiteful days

And it hopelessly went wrong
This tiresome masquerade
A perfect family day
Tragically displayed

No Me

There, I'm all alone again
And it seems as though it's never been so bleak
With the prize still in my hands
I'm led away towards a fate I cannot flee
Broke a bargain on my end
To redefine, cut all the ties that incomplete me

Turn around I know the winds there
And I was blind for all the sights I could have seen
And the crown that I might get here
Won't prevail against the walls that I can't breach
Take the reins now in my stead
I'll move away from all the eyes that cannot see me now
See me now

Hear the raging in my past
Hear the rising of my breath
Far away, as the veil is nearing death and I'll grieve
But the fire is lit again, it's slowly burning me within
All the way, as the scene is nearly set, and I'll see
Butterflies, that are aching me inside
Through the veins, as they cut out all the mess and they won't rest till I bleed

Then I'm all alone again
And it seems as though it's never been so sweet
Let me write it all by hand
And I'll be the one I'm told I cannot be
All the roads that are ahead
Lead away from all the arms that cannot reach me now
Reach me now

See the fading of the past
The unwinding of the thread
It was all above me
Right above my head
Now it's pouring on me
It's dawning on me
That everything that's golden
Is buried deep in grounds eroded
Now start digging there where all the lines meet

When the light has gone away
When the light has gone away
Not afraid
Not afraid
Not afraid
Of the dark

And the rise we're on will be
And the rise we're on will be
All the same
All the same
All the same
As the fall

And the signs went up again
And the signs went up again
Don't be late
Don't be late
Don't be late
To the door
Or the ride will never end
Or the fight will never end

Gone around
Wasted years to get it
Now throw away my only friends

Form a line
They make you pay to get in
My God

Am I too late

I'm not my father nor my cares
I'm not my body
There is no me
Get it now

But you will know me brother
Know me brother

And the price went up again
And the price went up again
Buy the weight
Buy the weight
Buy the weight
On your heart

And the body that we're in
And the body that we're in
Not awake
Not awake
Not awake
But not dead

And the foes we're up against
And the foes we're up against
Are not there
Are not there
Only there in our head
Are not there